What the fuck am I doing

Where did my goals in life go?

I was all walking on sunshine and productive, “conquering the world”, and then some time passes and I catch a moment of self awareness and realize that I have no compass at all in my life.

I simply forgot, I became tired of living.

One day it was there, everything is fine, and then next day rolls in and I go into a binge of nothing for too long.

I start living on auto pilot, not feeling whatever the fuck I am supposed to feel in moments like this.