Why can't I do it

am i resisting moving forward because i’m lazy or because i’m forcing myself to do things that i don’t inherently enjoy?
is my fate stuck to things that i enjoy?
what if things i enjoy don’t give money?
what if they do and i’m not smart enough to turn them into money?

god fucking damn it…

why can’t i ever have comfort?
is it so hard to just allow me some time of peace?